Wednesday, August 6, 2008

pink schmink

Today I carried some mammogram and ultrasound pictures in a big pink carrier to an office with pink walls. I put on a pink gown and watched the nurse fill in my temperature and blood pressure in a pink file folder. The surgeon gave me a pink card that said, "Hang in There" in pink letters. On the way home, I saw a sign on the corner that read, "We buy houses. Call 577-PINK". If I believed that the universe took a personal interest in my life, I would say that it was having a good laugh at my expense today. Remember how I told you I hated the color pink?

I still do. Only now more than ever.

Two rosy consolations:
1. Mike's pink Cosmos with pink sugared rims and Bettina's pink Camels on the night I found out. (I had a free pass, you know.....)
2. Paris Hilton's plans for the White (Pink!) House (Watch it now)

12 comments:

John said...

I wish you the strength and luck. --

Strength to deal with the emotional challenges ahead, and luck... because with some luck everything turns out exactly the way you want it to.

bmommyrun said...

You have such a gift for writing.journaling. I know that this strength will give you power over the next few weeks and months. You are in my thoughts and prayers

suesun said...

haha.... after reading The Hobbit, I told Jana that there should to be a "luck modifier", because Bilbo Baggins was just so damn lucky all the time and, well, you just need it sometimes. Even moreso than wisdom or strength or charisma.

So, yeah, roll the dice and live by the numbers, and hope for a really high luck modifier!
thx......

Kirsten said...

Pink...the sci-fi writer Phillip K Dick saw God as a pink beam of light. But maybe that's not exactly a recommendation of the color. I'm sure it started out to make the whole thing less clinical and imposing, but do you really need reminding that the reason you're there is that you were wrapped in pink on your first arrival in the world? Nothing lady-like about the stuff you've got to face, so it's just as well you're a strong woman. And you have strong men and women who love you, right there with you (even those of us "present" from a distance). So much love x

Jim Thomsen said...

You're going to be fine, my friend. I showed your e-mail to a doctor friend, and he said the diagnosis is fairly common, the surgery routine, the follow-up un-intrusive and the recurrence rate almost nil.

Here's hoping you'll soon be back "in the pink" ... um ... I mean ... uhhhhhh ... hmmmmmmmm ... yeah.

I've known you less than six months, my friend, and yet I feel tremendously affected by your presence in my life. You're needed here, you see. You haven't got time for the pain.

Gary Gillis said...

Thanks for letting me know, my thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

Hello my dear, inspiring friend,
My thoughts are with you, my prayers, and absolute confidence in your complete recovery. You wrote "Pink Schmink" as the title of your blog--I'd like to second that with "Cancer Schmancer"! I'm a 13 year survivor of Hodgkins and I can honestly say is was one of the more profound 'gifts' I've ever received..but then again, I tend to look at the world through rose (pink) colored glasses:) A huge hug and warm wishes. Chocolate is on the way. Blessings. Beth

Noel's boring cancer survivor mom said...

Yeah, luck's a good thing, and so is anger. In fact, your anger is one of the things about you I especially like. It will serve you. It's so much better to shove it out rather than turn it in.

citizen of the world said...

I never understood making pink the team color for breast cancer.

You are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

There is a burgler in the house taking friends, first stealing the calm and then robbing quietly while I watch. It's like a dream, one of those scarey dreams that something is wrong and you open your mouth to scream and nothing comes out. I've been awakened by yet another nightmare when I read 'Pink Schmink'

suesun said...

i love you all. xoxo

Rebecca said...

I fucking hate pink! However, the kick-ass singer P!nk, I like. pink is dainty, flimsy, weak. You, my friend, are anything but.